I just commuted from Crossfit back to Josh’s house… it’s my “SOMETHING NEW” this week. I’d have you know that IT’S SUCH A GREAT FEELING saving money.
2017 is around the corner (such cliche), time to plan.
1. Do something new every week with Josh
3. Get abs! It’s year of the abs!
4. Get my finances straight. Save ___xxx___ amount of money.
It’s not exactly my first weekend of actual rest since January, but it kinda feels like it.
I’m just tired.
Spent the weekend making salads, buying nice clothes, visiting friends (Fine. A friend. One.), surfing the net.
It’s just weird though.. I spent the whole few months feeling unpampered, and here I am with face mask on, new clothes everywhere, strategizing my week’s makeup and clothes, yet I feel a whole lot more unpampered because of all the pampering I see online.
Like hmmm, I’m just sooo close to accepting that I’ll never be enough. For work and for kaartehan. I mean I’m not being madrama or anything pero it’s just that there’s just wayyy too much to learn and way too much to do. This must all be due to over-unsubstantial-interneting.
You know what solves all this? Dis-connecting and just cuddling and making kulit all day with the love of my life.
I guess I’m okay.
I miss writing. Like I have not written a single decent line in 2 years.
See, I even used “like”. My.
Okay cool, I don’t have hypertension. Neck spasms though.
has it gone? Can I have it back?
Hello anonymous life.
I would like to take this moment to offer gratitude to everything that the universe blessed me with. First and foremost, peace of mind. I feel a lot of security from the great love that is my very own JKRBondoc. My rock, my hero, my king, my soldier, and my never failing taga-ubos ng sobrang kanin at taga-yakap pag galaw ng galaw.
Thank you for the love that I feel for my work, for the love that I feel for everything. The truth is, it’s supposedly a stressful job, demanding definitely, but really… I feel happy and calming doing it all. Learning and sucking up all the knowledge and information. Using whatever creativity I have scooped up from everywhere to the technical things.
I feel like this is the best expression of the skills and interests I’ve accumulated throughout the year, and that this is where I belong. All challenged and stimulated while keeping a calm and steady heart.
Thank you for the family that will bring me to Japan hehe. To my roomies who always make me feel that I’m never ever alone in my yuppy struggles of ulam to find, time to clean, and boyfriends to maintain :)
To yoga for keeping me sane and weirdly granting me wisdom and understanding, I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW AND WHY, I just know that I am eternally
I’ve been arriving in the office really early for the past 2 days. Lets me cope with my monkey mind.
Everything is clear and quiet, as much as I love the “bustle” that is Makati, the peace before the surge of activities is seriously a leisure as much as its a productivity hack
Winners almost always do what they think is the most productive thing possible at every given moment, losers never do.
Everywhere there are these beauty campaigns that say “It’s okay not to wear makeup” etc etc. That’s empowering, sure. Love your flaws, love your age, love your body.
They don’t get it though. I’m sure I get all the love yourself, and it’s hard to be a woman. I read about body image, how tough issues are. I have issues. Everyone has issues. My boyfriend will say they are very first world, but nonetheless, they are real.
I have “Beauty Myth” by Naomi Wolf, “Gifts of imperfection” by Brene Brown, I’ve never been one to shy away from books and articles about feminism, self-love, (self-improvement book junkie ovah here!). I’m subscribed to tinybuddha.com godammit. And now that I’ve laid down enough credibility to talk about this subject here goes:
Where is the campaign that says “It’s okay to WEAR makeup”. Like seriously. How is concealing my eyebags and filling in my brows an insecure thing to do? Why the fucking hell is that “SHALLOW”. I know how smart I am and how substantial and how hard I work for everything. Why will I be judged for my impeccable flawless use of foundation (which I mix with moisturiser 90% of the time) ????? So what if I contour on a daily basis? 1. I can get away with it with this very honey skintone 2. And in the future event that I overcontour, I choose to contour because I face the world better when my jaw is chiselled like a gazelle!
Okay bitches, I will wear my waterproof gel dipbrow before I work out, liptint, and some concealer here and their. I think you are sooooo beautiful that you have nothing on your face, and I know I will look like a goddess anyway after work out when it’s all melted away and my muscles are popping like crazy.
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